[ It's a soft confirmation as he tries to focus on what the man's saying. His head is hazy, caught up in the heat between them, the startling sound of his heartbeat almost enough to distract him. These are the times when he's finally truly aware of it; painfully aware of it and what it means.
He's not so good at calm, though he tries for as long as he can. He feels so numb so often, this kind of connection can overwhelm him in due time but he revels in it no matter how agitated he is at initiation.
A place... for him? Could such a place exist? He's felt like an outsider in all places since he first became aware of himself. He's not sure he knows how to feel 'belonging' at all. No where outside of his brother's side, at least.
His voice rasps out as he squeezes his thighs against the Archangel's hips, gasping as he speaks. ]
[ The word is spoken almost thoughtfully as he takes one hand off Sinistra's to wrap around his arousal. He likes the idea of actually feeling the other's orgasm with his own hand. It gives him a sick sense of power and control that isn't really even there.
I miss the B-cube. He thinks to himself, idly. ]
I love you. [ Archangel lies. It sounds pretty and earnest, as always. Though, he thinks that he's saying it for his own benefit. Well, I am. He admits; he'll say those words as often as he likes. He thinks he understands what they mean, and uses them more as a weapon than something to comfort.
His panting increases; his thrusting quickens before it abruptly stops. He touches and touches and adores and loves, but of course, all those things are meant for someone else. Archangel feels his breath catch as he does finally finish.
Your brother would feel better. He thinks even as he kisses and kisses whatever bit of skin that he can as he lets the throes of his orgasm settle. ]
[ The hand wrapping around his length makes his back arch with a soft cry, hips flinching as he feels pushed to the edge. He has no name to call out for him, though even if he did he would not give him the satisfaction. He just rolls his hips with each stroke of his hand, completely saturated in feeling.
The words hit him but even in the haze of his approaching orgasm, he refuses to let them sink into him. The idea of being loved by anyone, especially this man, is too farfetched. He feels sickened by them, just a little. It's cruel to give him such a lie, he thinks.
His whole body tenses with a soft cry as he finally tips over, spilling out over the Archangel's hand and onto his belly as he finishes. His breathing is ragged, head cloudy as he twitches in his grasp. He can only let out a short gasp as the Archangel finishes inside him, the warmth of it striking him gently.
Despite his heart rejecting his declaration of love, he soaks up the affections greedily, catching kisses with a clumsy mouth and running his finger up from his scratched shoulders into the Archangel's hair. He laps up every second of it. ]
[ Indeed, it really is good to talk more during these times. He feels a refreshed feeling settle over his body and mind. I will make my Order, again, and I'll have all the chroma that Sinistra gives me to help build it.
Each kiss that he gives him is deep, passionate; he takes every clumsy kiss in a hungry manner. It's because that it continues to build chroma, doesn't it? Everything ensures that he'll be able to create what he desires. He smiles warm, pleased, against Sinistra's mouth before he kisses him again.
It takes him some time to finally pull out of him. Honestly, he didn't want to leave him and almost wanted to wait until he could get excited again to have a messy second time. But he decides that he's been indulged himself enough. It's just like Sinistra says... I really would use him up, and I should show some restraint. ]
Come on. I'll help clean you up. [ He says instead as he pulls away so that he can kiss the Koriel's temple. ] Thank you, Sinistra. Thank you. [ There is sincerity in his words as he thanks him, because without him, he isn't sure he would come to the conclusion that he did. ]
[ Sinistra, in turn, feels a comfortable silence in his body and mind. He feels respite, grounded and calmed. Connecting... Feeling things... Being reassured by hands that he is whole and real is all he could want in this world.
He just wants connection like this, he thinks, and this man really serves that purpose for him, awful or not. He can find solace in their mutually disgusting states of being. He can find peace there in every kiss they share together, playing pretend for just a little while like they were actually lovers instead of begrudging allies.
He almost doesn't want him to move. If he could stay inside him , sleep here in his arms and on top of him, maybe he could truly rest for a night.
He lets out a soft breath as the Archangel slips out of him and moves away. Sinistra props himself up on his palms, arms shaking just enough to be noticed. He's still catching his breath as he nods.]
Okay... Okay. Clean up... Okay.
[ his mouth isn't yet equipped for words, but he can understand. He slowly works to get his feet on the floor and stand up wobbly.
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[ It's a soft confirmation as he tries to focus on what the man's saying. His head is hazy, caught up in the heat between them, the startling sound of his heartbeat almost enough to distract him. These are the times when he's finally truly aware of it; painfully aware of it and what it means.
He's not so good at calm, though he tries for as long as he can. He feels so numb so often, this kind of connection can overwhelm him in due time but he revels in it no matter how agitated he is at initiation.
A place... for him? Could such a place exist? He's felt like an outsider in all places since he first became aware of himself. He's not sure he knows how to feel 'belonging' at all. No where outside of his brother's side, at least.
His voice rasps out as he squeezes his thighs against the Archangel's hips, gasping as he speaks. ]
I... can't much longer... ah...
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[ The word is spoken almost thoughtfully as he takes one hand off Sinistra's to wrap around his arousal. He likes the idea of actually feeling the other's orgasm with his own hand. It gives him a sick sense of power and control that isn't really even there.
I miss the B-cube. He thinks to himself, idly. ]
I love you. [ Archangel lies. It sounds pretty and earnest, as always. Though, he thinks that he's saying it for his own benefit. Well, I am. He admits; he'll say those words as often as he likes. He thinks he understands what they mean, and uses them more as a weapon than something to comfort.
His panting increases; his thrusting quickens before it abruptly stops. He touches and touches and adores and loves, but of course, all those things are meant for someone else. Archangel feels his breath catch as he does finally finish.
Your brother would feel better. He thinks even as he kisses and kisses whatever bit of skin that he can as he lets the throes of his orgasm settle. ]
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The words hit him but even in the haze of his approaching orgasm, he refuses to let them sink into him. The idea of being loved by anyone, especially this man, is too farfetched. He feels sickened by them, just a little. It's cruel to give him such a lie, he thinks.
His whole body tenses with a soft cry as he finally tips over, spilling out over the Archangel's hand and onto his belly as he finishes. His breathing is ragged, head cloudy as he twitches in his grasp. He can only let out a short gasp as the Archangel finishes inside him, the warmth of it striking him gently.
Despite his heart rejecting his declaration of love, he soaks up the affections greedily, catching kisses with a clumsy mouth and running his finger up from his scratched shoulders into the Archangel's hair. He laps up every second of it. ]
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Each kiss that he gives him is deep, passionate; he takes every clumsy kiss in a hungry manner. It's because that it continues to build chroma, doesn't it? Everything ensures that he'll be able to create what he desires. He smiles warm, pleased, against Sinistra's mouth before he kisses him again.
It takes him some time to finally pull out of him. Honestly, he didn't want to leave him and almost wanted to wait until he could get excited again to have a messy second time. But he decides that he's been indulged himself enough. It's just like Sinistra says... I really would use him up, and I should show some restraint. ]
Come on. I'll help clean you up. [ He says instead as he pulls away so that he can kiss the Koriel's temple. ] Thank you, Sinistra. Thank you. [ There is sincerity in his words as he thanks him, because without him, he isn't sure he would come to the conclusion that he did. ]
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He just wants connection like this, he thinks, and this man really serves that purpose for him, awful or not. He can find solace in their mutually disgusting states of being. He can find peace there in every kiss they share together, playing pretend for just a little while like they were actually lovers instead of begrudging allies.
He almost doesn't want him to move. If he could stay inside him , sleep here in his arms and on top of him, maybe he could truly rest for a night.
He lets out a soft breath as the Archangel slips out of him and moves away. Sinistra props himself up on his palms, arms shaking just enough to be noticed. He's still catching his breath as he nods.]
Okay... Okay. Clean up... Okay.
[ his mouth isn't yet equipped for words, but he can understand. He slowly works to get his feet on the floor and stand up wobbly.